This is a part of my Notes from Underground creative writing assignment. I part which I thought worked out of context. The basic idea for it was to sort of mirror the type of rant-like writing that the Underground Man wrote. It is an extreme version of thoughts that I have had before, written in a way that makes you look a little crazy.
Monday, March 2, 2015
Notes from Underground Creative Writing Assignment
Self doubt. Thats the basis of it. Self doubt in everything that I do and say. Am I smart enough? Good enough? I dont know. Maybe I never will. But sometimes I get out of these crazy ideas, and I think about how of course I will never know that. Nobody will. How can we? Thats crazy in itself. I think that it is accepting that we dont know anything about anything and just understanding that. But how do I know that maybe even my “better” judgment is correct? Maybe that is the corrupt thing. Maybe everything I say is influenced by others. See what I mean? My thoughts are insane and I will go crazy if I let myself fall into that kind of hell. It’s like that man was saying in “This Is Water” that we have to really think about everything we think, and that we have the ability to change our thoughts if we want to bad enough. That is so difficult though. Bad thoughts are so easy for us. I have found that my music helps be get out of that. When I listen to music my head stops turning and I can just relax. Music is a funny thing too, we can be so influenced by theses words sometimes we dont even realize it. Thats me being sceptic again. Or maybe its just normal? I dont even know anymore. Thats the basic truth. I really dont know. I really don’t.
This is a part of my Notes from Underground creative writing assignment. I part which I thought worked out of context. The basic idea for it was to sort of mirror the type of rant-like writing that the Underground Man wrote. It is an extreme version of thoughts that I have had before, written in a way that makes you look a little crazy.
This is a part of my Notes from Underground creative writing assignment. I part which I thought worked out of context. The basic idea for it was to sort of mirror the type of rant-like writing that the Underground Man wrote. It is an extreme version of thoughts that I have had before, written in a way that makes you look a little crazy.
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i love reading your free associations rosalyn. thanks for sharing this post.
ReplyDeleteThis excerpt was very well written! I love the "ranting" type of style you used since it's always just so much fun to read. I particularly like when you asked if being skeptic is the true normal. That's a really interesting thought to have. Great post!
ReplyDeleteIt's okay, Rosalyn, I think you're smart enough. You don't seem crazy in real life, so it's okay. I think maybe you would be happier if you weren't so skeptical.
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